Namibian Viking

What do you feel right now?

I feel scared, excited, and restless.

But most of all I feel scared. It feels as if I am standing back-stage and can hear thousands of people shouting waiting for me to come out, BUT I have forgotten what I should say. Actually, that is not very good explanation, since I like talking in front of people, so this is different. The reason why I am scared is that Namibia is now around the corner. In 27 days I will be on the start line in the Namibian 24h Ultra Marathon.

Some of my friends are saying that I made the race last year, so I have nothing to fear this year. Well my answer to that is, that I did it last year, so I know what is ahead of me, and exactly because of that I am scared!

But I think that me being scared of the race is a good thing. I think I should have a healthy respect for the race and what it will demand of me.

Excited
However at the same time as I am scared I am also excited! excited to go back to Africa, back to Namibia. For the third time I will stand by the foot of the mighty Brandberg (where I took the photo above). I know that it will be a great feeling to be back. I can feel my level of excitement grow just as I am writing about it. The feeling on the morning of the race, not knowing what to do with yourself. Checking all the gear, checking if any of the others have thoughts about something that I have not, Excitement. A feeling so strong that on the morning of the race you could touch it. It was in the air and it was so real. That is what I want to go back to, something to revisit again. To feel alive and to feel that whatever I have done in preparation doesn’t matter, it is all about now, to be able to channel all my energy to be strong and hopefully to complete the race.

Restless
The last couple of weeks I have been feeling restless. At times I feel locked in. I feel as if I just want to get started. This year will be such a massive challenge. The thought of doing Namibia and failing at the first hurdle has of course crossed my mind, but more so I am thinking about the end, about the feeling when I have done the fifth event and know that I have completed my 2009 race series. I just want to get on with it. want to get started!

Please keep sending in your thoughts and comments on the “contact” button, I really cannot tell you enough how much that means to me.

So summed up I am feeling scared, feeling excited and feeling restless and roaring to go!

Bring on Namibia – Keep Namibia away!

Which one should it be ??